Saturday, 29 October 2011

Weep like a man.

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All of a sudden something welled within me,

it was more like a river in tide.

Ravaging floods sweeping away 

everything to plunder the banks.

I could just manage to see her fade out

and dissolve in the  crowd ,for one last time.

She was gone now.

As the full force of the floods

now hit me , stronger than ever.

Waves after waves of desperation

engulfed me , in repeated succession,

without any chance of respite.

My legs were giving away.

I was no more able to stand on them.

In a slow motion,

I heaped on the ground on my knees,

bend and thrust my face

within the two palms of my hand,

seeking the elusive sanctuary.

I could feel the warmth

of my tears streaking down the cheeks

and tasted its saltiness on my lips.

My whole existence came to a naught

in these few seconds.

Nothing could hold me back.

Not even the embarrassment

of making a scene in public.

I wept without any restraint.

The walls were now coming down,

with a heart wrenching sound

and flowing away with the flood waters.

Friday, 28 October 2011

The pouted lips,
the furtive glance
The dark eyes of yours
are the reason of my illness
which no medicine cures.
I just wait with bated breath
for what else is in store.
As you let your tresses loose,
I can bear it no more .
Are you aware ?
When you walk,
with such languorous disdain.
What really happens,
to people around?
They just go insane.
What makes you do?
these little things,
to take me off my guard
I don't know
why you have to
make my life so hard.
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Monday, 24 October 2011

Alone ,all alone.

Among the crowds of of countless people,

in the company of close friends,smiling,

even when my near ones are around me.

Someone reminds me all of a sudden

alone, you are just alone.

By habit or by choice, I always find myself

holding the goodbye note, soaked in memories

left for me by all that was once dear to my heart

now gone,with no chance of a comeback ,

even as a surprise.

These flowers which once bloomed to make

my mornings bright , now withered, remind me.

These birds, which perched on my window pane,

chirped in the morning every day tell me-

Alone, you are all alone.

Saturday, 22 October 2011

Anna is neither MG nor JP. They were political creatures first then a crusader. But Anna is more like Binoba and all chances are that he will end up like Binoba Bhave , a "Sarkari Sant" . To take on the intricate Indian political system is not an easy task. It is risky and there are more chances of getting lost in the labyrinths or drown in the cesspool .
To do anything worthwhile, it is necessary... to have the control of power . to have the control , you need to win elections. To win the elections, you have to play politics. Once you are in politics, you have to compromise. High moral ground is of no use. You may win the support of some educated and comparatively privileged middle class like myself but thats it.
While undoubtedly Anna has proved himself to be a crusader and deserves to be saluted and supported on his mission which touches a very basic and contemporary issue of our day to day life, the persons around him are people who are fuelled by ambition and want to ride piggyback to power without going through the grind of politics and allied troubles. Their individual ambitions, alliances,inclinations,ideologies, ommissions and more importantly commissions will always work against the purpose.
None of the political parties, Congress, BJP, CPM or any others want Anna to succeed. They are patiently waiting for the self destruction of the movement before the next General elections. That is the reason for this inept and weak government to continue. Even the opposition does not want this government to fall now. MMS is a really lucky person !!!!!!!!

Madhushala Verse 101

Saqi,if you really have wine so little to offer;
then why make us crazy with thirst to suffer.
We die in our daily grind, you hide and smile again;
Oh why does the tavern have to play with our pain ?

Saqi, jab hai paas tumhare itni thodi si haalaaa,
kyon peene ki abilashaaa se , karte sabko matwaalaa
hum pees pees kar marte hain,tum chhip chhip kar muskaate ho
hai,hamari peedaa se kreedaa karti madhushala.

Madhushala verse 101

Saturday, 15 October 2011

My Kolkata trip has thrown up unpleasant surprise with my wife getting Malaria.

She is having high fever and very weak. Chloroquinol has been
administered but fever persists. Blood report shows presence of
P.Vivax which causes common malaria.

As it is the heat and powercuts here was a little too much for us
after so many days . But meeting friends and relatives kept us busy.
Things were quite bright at the beginning with food,friends and

Now this has upset all our plans. I have extended my leave and she is
forced to cut down her stay as planned. Both will now leave for Mumbai
on 18th. I don't want to leave her here with son.

Let's hope the fever is gone by then.

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Friday, 14 October 2011

Alone with my thoughts,
I can distinctly hear.
The slow chants of prayer
along with the temple bells ringing.
The silhouetted evening sky
providing the still background
by the silently flowing river.
Are these all real ?
Or from my wishes coming live?
I've walked so far in my quest.
That I've lost count
of the days and the nights.
But what a journey
it has really been for me.
with just dreams in my eyes
lighting the way,
I tried to reach my voice calling me.

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Wednesday, 12 October 2011

All those unfulfilled wishes
locked deep within my self.
There is a time when,
I have to bring them out
If only to clear the dust,
then caress them,
look at them with longing,
sigh and then again,
keep them locked.
Till the next time.
Who knows? Till when?

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Sunday, 9 October 2011

Thoughts can bridge distance
even when eyes can not see.
Try it ,just close your eyes
for a second and think about me.

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Monday, 3 October 2011

Why do I have to run away?
From all that I hold so dear.
Do I thus punish myself?
Or is it rejection that I fear ?

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Saturday, 1 October 2011

Why do I have to run away, from all that I can claim as mine.
Is it so difficult to hold on to your possesions?
Or is it self flagellation?
That I wish to give away like a noble king
my kingdom and occupied territory
I really can't understand my mind
as it likes to roam,freely from place to place
Never waiting to settle,restless for a change

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